8.🚗🤬 Jesus, Don’t Take the Wheel Yet—I’m Not Done Cussing

A confession on rage, redemption, and refusing to merge too early.

Yes, I’ve heard the song.
Yes, I know surrender is supposed to be holy.
But if Jesus takes the wheel right now,
He’s gonna hear every four-letter word I didn’t say at church.

Because I’m out here—
white-knuckling through grief, healing, triggers, and traffic.
And spiritual serenity has not yet merged into my lane.

🛣 The Real Road to Redemption

I’m not against surrender.
I’m just saying—maybe not during rush hour.
Not while someone cuts me off
with a “Honk if you love Jesus” bumper sticker
and the audacity to brake-check a woman
already balancing trauma, trust issues, and a lukewarm coffee.

🧠 The Psychology of “Letting Go” (When You’re Not Ready)

Letting go sounds noble until you’re
someone whose nervous system’s been rewired by hypervigilance.
Until “trust the process” sounds like a setup.
Until “just breathe” feels like a betrayal.

Some of us weren’t taught to hand over control.
We were taught that control was safety
because everything else was chaos.

So no—I’m not ready to let go of the wheel.
Not yet.
Not until I know I won’t be thrown from the vehicle.

🙏 Faith for the Emotionally Unfiltered

I don’t need a God who only shows up in quiet time and worship songs.
I need a God who sits shotgun during a panic attack
and doesn’t flinch when I scream
“ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW?!”
at both traffic
and life.

Because here’s the truth:
Healing is not polite.
Faith is not always filtered.
And holy doesn’t mean hush.

Sometimes redemption sounds like:
“Jesus, don’t take the wheel yet.
I’m not done cussing.
But I’m still trying.”

💡 Psychological + Spiritual Insight:

• Anger isn’t a sin—it’s a signal.
  Especially for survivors learning what was never safe to feel.
  
• Control isn’t the enemy—it’s the symptom
  of a system that broke you and told you to smile.
  
• God doesn’t need you perfect—just present.
  Even if that presence comes with profanity.
  

🚘 Sacred but Sweary

This one’s for:

• The ones who’ve cussed through their healing
  
• The ones who love God but yell in traffic
  
• The ones who know Jesus rides shotgun
  and still won’t shame them for flipping someone off on the freeway of life
  

🧨 Closing Hook:

Jesus, don’t take the wheel yet.
I’m not done cussing.
But I promise I’m still driving toward You—
even if I take every wrong exit on the way there.